‘When I loved myself enough, I began to see I didn’t have to chase after life. If I am quiet and hold still life comes to me.’ Thank you Gabby for that reminder.
Now I wouldn’t be considered the most patient person. Sure I am very laid back and have bucket loads of patience for daily activities and people but when it comes to my dreams and achieving them not so much. I tend to panic, watch the clock and want to run before I walk towards them. This usually results in me stumbling, getting frustrated or getting lost (sometimes all of the above!) which only slows the process down.
Lucky for me, I grew up in a family where dreaming is important, where dreams were possible, attainable and worthwhile. Every time I tripped up and fell on my way to a dream, my mother would wipe the dirt off my knee and helped me look at the map to se where I had gone off course, my father would teach me how to read the map and gave me the provisions to sustain me on the adventure.
I tend to be rather stubborn too, so if there is something I want I go after it in any way I can until I have what I want. At twenty four I have realized sometimes I hold my map upside down, and the thing I’m actually looking for may not be what I’m running to. This is a good lesson, it slows me down, making me pause to read the map properly, to notice the beautiful scenery around me and to check in with myself. It’s at those moments where I experience true magic and find a new door open, a shortcut on my map or a dream arrive and land at my feet.
‘I may not have gone where I intended to go, but I think I ended up where I needed to be’
This rings true for me, the scenic route has been an exciting one and guarantees more excitement to come, looking back if I had known the route from the start I still would have chosen this path, it brought me to so many different places and brought me so many beautiful people, I wouldn’t have it any other way. I start my new job with Virgin Atlantic tomorrow and I couldn’t be happier. Yes it’s not a film job but I feel as though I have been guided here, I am not alone and I’m being looked after. I’ll continue on my journey toward my dreams and I thank you for being part of this adventure, you help light the way, I hope in some small way I can return the favour.
‘Just when the caterpillar thought the world was over, it became a butterfly.’